Monday, October 21, 2002
miscomunications suck, but hopefully it's all good. once again i'm not exactly happy. it sickens me the way i complain and whine, although no one hears me anyway. fuck em.
Am so tired. Stayed home from work on Friday after staying up til 1:30. It doesn't seem that late but after going to bed at 2 the previous night and 1 the night before that...it kinda all added up. Plus Thursday night was stressful. The Boston Store decided my check wasn't good enough for them so P had to buy me a ticket to Miss Saigon and I had to pay her back. Good thing she still owed me $28 from the Incubus concert so I only had to pay her $24. So it was all good. Then in trying to hurry and find the civic center in Madison, we got wrong directions and had to run a couple of blocks to get there on time. P swears we didn't have to run but I think it was fun. So we saw the play. Great good play. The guy who played Chris wasn't my favorite, but the actor who played John... *melting*. He was really really hot and he could sing. I about died. And the guy who played the Engineer was awesome. I guess he's traveled around the world performing this play. Very enjoyable.
So we left and got lost for 45 mins before asking some guy at McDonalds where to go. He told us, then we tried to do it, but we couldn't quite pull it off. Oh well. We got home around 12 (P decided to crash at my house) and I still had to do some stuff before work so I did that and didn't go to bed 'til 1. Sucky sucky for your wang.
I woke up at 8:14 saying "OH SHIT!". Jumped up, grabbed the phone and called work. I told the receptionist that I would be there in a half hour, but she told me to talk to my supervisor. She got on the phone and asked how I was feeling, I said pretty bad and she told me to go to bed. I didn't want to offend her or anything so I did. And slept until 11:30. P and I proceeded to spend the day walking around downtown and drinking Chai.
My father came home and we went to get cell phones. I needed a new one cause my old one sucks. So we got those. Horray. Then I went home and C came over. The plan was to watch a bunch of girly, want-to-make-you-cry-movies and eat Ben and Jerry's. Well, that was too much for us. So when P came back over, we watched Red Firecracker, Green Firecracker and laughed. RFGF is a chinese film about a woman running a business so she acts and dresses like a man. She's not keeping it a secret that she's a woman or anything, but she was the only child and her father and advisors didn't want the firecracker-making company to go to some other family. She falls in love with an artist that pretty much rapes her and has to choose. Well, it turns out all fucked up like. So if you want a laugh, rent it. Be advised it has subtitles.
After that we went to Kitchen. I only got to see J for a bit, but his dad was there and he offered to buy me a steak. I was kinda shocked. Not in a bad way or anything but how often do have someone you've never met offer to buy you a steak. I'm gonna have to say that was the first for me. But I said no thanks. Oh well, J left early cause he had a headache and had to work in the morning. So I sat and talked to C, M and a guy named E. He told us about his blind date from hell. And it truly was the worst story I had ever heard. E was really funny and I enjoyed talking to him. I might have flirted a little but who cares? It's fun and hurts no one, right? Right? So I feel a little guilty. I don't take it serious and I hope no one else does either. Oh well. We left Kitchen around 4 ish. Whilest saying goodbye to a friend, he instead invited us to go over to his house and watch Snatch. We said ok and went, first stopping at the store for donuts, choco milk and cigs. I ate my donut, watched about 10 mins of the movie and fell asleep. Which pissed me off, cause I really wanted to see the movie. I woke up in time for the credits. Sitting and talking until the sun came up, we passed the time mindlessly. We left and I got home around 8 am, just in time to see my parents off for their bike ride. I woke up at various time during the day, stayed awake for an hour once even, but mostly slept until 5:30 pm.
Did pretty much nothing that night. Watched a movie, got yelled at by my dad and talked on the phone for 3 hours. That's about it. I got into bed at about 11, fell asleep around 11:50, got woke up at 12 by J calling. Talked to him for 15 mins or so. Went back to sleep, woke up at 2 by my father to go hunting.
As much as I complained, looking back on hunting, I had a lot of fun. It was hard work canouing in 4 inches of water and 3 ft (more or less depending on where you stepped) of marsh mud. It took me an hour and a half, but then I took down my two geese within 15 secs of each other. That was cool. So we went home and I sliced my finger while cleaning them.
Called P, took a shower, ate breakfast, waited, waited, waited...P shows up an hour and a half later. Her and KJ eat, then watch tv. Which annoyed me cause I wanted to leave and go see J. He worked at 3:30, it was already 2:15 and it takes around a half hour to get to his place from mine. I gave up at 2:45. I called and woke him up. Whoops, I don't really care. Oh well, talked to him for a little bit. Not long enough. KJ left for work, we left for M and J's to watch the Packer game with M. I was pretty sad the whole night, but no one really knew. After the game we watched Hair and I fell asleep right before the end. Which really pissed me off. Then P made me kick her ass. Her and M together managed to pin me down and start tickling me. not cool. Oh well. I got slapped, scratched and tickled a lot. It sucked. Oh well.
So why was I sad and bitter and depressed you ask? Cause I don't see J enough. Watching P and KJ while I was waiting to leave got me pissed off at them and really jealous at the same time. They're so natural together. And I don't even know if I'm like that with J cause we just don't see each other. And when we do just happen to see each other, there's almost always other people around. Sucky sucky.
I don't want to deal with this again or I'm gonna get all sad all over again. I think I'll go work. yeah....
Am so tired. Stayed home from work on Friday after staying up til 1:30. It doesn't seem that late but after going to bed at 2 the previous night and 1 the night before that...it kinda all added up. Plus Thursday night was stressful. The Boston Store decided my check wasn't good enough for them so P had to buy me a ticket to Miss Saigon and I had to pay her back. Good thing she still owed me $28 from the Incubus concert so I only had to pay her $24. So it was all good. Then in trying to hurry and find the civic center in Madison, we got wrong directions and had to run a couple of blocks to get there on time. P swears we didn't have to run but I think it was fun. So we saw the play. Great good play. The guy who played Chris wasn't my favorite, but the actor who played John... *melting*. He was really really hot and he could sing. I about died. And the guy who played the Engineer was awesome. I guess he's traveled around the world performing this play. Very enjoyable.
So we left and got lost for 45 mins before asking some guy at McDonalds where to go. He told us, then we tried to do it, but we couldn't quite pull it off. Oh well. We got home around 12 (P decided to crash at my house) and I still had to do some stuff before work so I did that and didn't go to bed 'til 1. Sucky sucky for your wang.
I woke up at 8:14 saying "OH SHIT!". Jumped up, grabbed the phone and called work. I told the receptionist that I would be there in a half hour, but she told me to talk to my supervisor. She got on the phone and asked how I was feeling, I said pretty bad and she told me to go to bed. I didn't want to offend her or anything so I did. And slept until 11:30. P and I proceeded to spend the day walking around downtown and drinking Chai.
My father came home and we went to get cell phones. I needed a new one cause my old one sucks. So we got those. Horray. Then I went home and C came over. The plan was to watch a bunch of girly, want-to-make-you-cry-movies and eat Ben and Jerry's. Well, that was too much for us. So when P came back over, we watched Red Firecracker, Green Firecracker and laughed. RFGF is a chinese film about a woman running a business so she acts and dresses like a man. She's not keeping it a secret that she's a woman or anything, but she was the only child and her father and advisors didn't want the firecracker-making company to go to some other family. She falls in love with an artist that pretty much rapes her and has to choose. Well, it turns out all fucked up like. So if you want a laugh, rent it. Be advised it has subtitles.
After that we went to Kitchen. I only got to see J for a bit, but his dad was there and he offered to buy me a steak. I was kinda shocked. Not in a bad way or anything but how often do have someone you've never met offer to buy you a steak. I'm gonna have to say that was the first for me. But I said no thanks. Oh well, J left early cause he had a headache and had to work in the morning. So I sat and talked to C, M and a guy named E. He told us about his blind date from hell. And it truly was the worst story I had ever heard. E was really funny and I enjoyed talking to him. I might have flirted a little but who cares? It's fun and hurts no one, right? Right? So I feel a little guilty. I don't take it serious and I hope no one else does either. Oh well. We left Kitchen around 4 ish. Whilest saying goodbye to a friend, he instead invited us to go over to his house and watch Snatch. We said ok and went, first stopping at the store for donuts, choco milk and cigs. I ate my donut, watched about 10 mins of the movie and fell asleep. Which pissed me off, cause I really wanted to see the movie. I woke up in time for the credits. Sitting and talking until the sun came up, we passed the time mindlessly. We left and I got home around 8 am, just in time to see my parents off for their bike ride. I woke up at various time during the day, stayed awake for an hour once even, but mostly slept until 5:30 pm.
Did pretty much nothing that night. Watched a movie, got yelled at by my dad and talked on the phone for 3 hours. That's about it. I got into bed at about 11, fell asleep around 11:50, got woke up at 12 by J calling. Talked to him for 15 mins or so. Went back to sleep, woke up at 2 by my father to go hunting.
As much as I complained, looking back on hunting, I had a lot of fun. It was hard work canouing in 4 inches of water and 3 ft (more or less depending on where you stepped) of marsh mud. It took me an hour and a half, but then I took down my two geese within 15 secs of each other. That was cool. So we went home and I sliced my finger while cleaning them.
Called P, took a shower, ate breakfast, waited, waited, waited...P shows up an hour and a half later. Her and KJ eat, then watch tv. Which annoyed me cause I wanted to leave and go see J. He worked at 3:30, it was already 2:15 and it takes around a half hour to get to his place from mine. I gave up at 2:45. I called and woke him up. Whoops, I don't really care. Oh well, talked to him for a little bit. Not long enough. KJ left for work, we left for M and J's to watch the Packer game with M. I was pretty sad the whole night, but no one really knew. After the game we watched Hair and I fell asleep right before the end. Which really pissed me off. Then P made me kick her ass. Her and M together managed to pin me down and start tickling me. not cool. Oh well. I got slapped, scratched and tickled a lot. It sucked. Oh well.
So why was I sad and bitter and depressed you ask? Cause I don't see J enough. Watching P and KJ while I was waiting to leave got me pissed off at them and really jealous at the same time. They're so natural together. And I don't even know if I'm like that with J cause we just don't see each other. And when we do just happen to see each other, there's almost always other people around. Sucky sucky.
I don't want to deal with this again or I'm gonna get all sad all over again. I think I'll go work. yeah....
