Monday, December 30, 2002
So very very tired. Can't keep eyes open. Want to curl up and sleep. Want to speak in complete sentences. Very eventful weekend.
Friday - X-mas party. Woo hoo. Seriously I had a ton of fun. I got off work at 4. Went directly home and played Oddworld for a bit. Ok an hour. C came over and I got dressed. I'm gonna have to say I looked pretty hot too. But I was super nervous. Oh well, we drove to the fancy smancy restaurant that the party was going to be in. Went inside. Saw a high school friend and talked to her for a bit. Then went in the private party room. It was pretty uneventful really. Well, not really at all. I got to talk to my boss when he was drunk and that was fun. He didn't believe that I wasn't old enough to drink. Then I said hello to my already drunk supervisor and she slipped me two drink tickets. Fun fun. So before dinner I had a nice Captain and Coke. Oh the food was excellent by the by. But after dinner I had my other Capt'n and Coke. Yummy. So when we were opening presents, I got a gift that was to be opened at the end of the night. I set it down and then went to smoke a cigarette. I got to talk to blue-eyes. It was neat. Not stunning conversation or anything, but it was good to talk. He got done smoking first and I made him wait for me. Walking back to the party room was a bit of a challenge, buzzin on cigarettes and my two drinks. Oh well tho. So I go and have to open my gift in front of everyone. I got the wrapping paper off it, but couldn't figure out how to open the box. One of the bosses helped me out. So inside there is an envelop and in it is a flyer type thing. I was so confused! But I guess I won a circular saw. Good times. Everyone laughed (I guess I'm a little girly in their view). So I sat down and two seconds later I'm getting called up there again. Apparently, the boss that helped me out was taking my gift and giving me his. So I had to open that too. It was a tool belt kind of thing, but it wraps around a bucket. Woot. I didn't care. I sat down again. I sat down again and talked to people more. It was fun. I got a back rub from a one coworker and my wrist kissed and a hug from another coworker when I was asking the time. Towards the end of the night, I kept trying to get someone to go and take a shot of Capt'n with me. Cause it was in the car, why not? Pretty much everyone turned me down, how depressing. But one guy gave me a shot of whiskey. I've never had it before (it's warm!) So finally we all said good bye. C and I went over to kitchen. We went in, grabbed one guy and came back outside to play hack. It's hard. I was buzzing and wearing heels. But I still managed. It got cold and I went inside. C and the guy came in soon afterwards. I made C take me to the store and when I realized that I forgot my ID, she bought me cigs. Went back to kitchen. Still, I kept trying to get someone to take a shot with me. JQ ended up being the only one willing. So we sat in C's car in the parking lot and had a couple of swigs. Ok, this is where I'm really stupid. Really really really stupid. JQ says he can't drink anymore cause he has to go in and play Magic. I say one more drink and he says only if you give me a kiss. I say fine, whatever, just drink. So he takes a drink and then kisses me. I was not expecting it and kissed back out of reflex. Then kinda backed up and pushed him away when I realized it. STUPID! Ahhh, not a thing I needed to happen. (But it gets worse...) So we went back inside. I'm really buzzin after a least two shots and half a JD Hurricane Punch. SM comes and picks me up and we drive to my house, pick up her x-mas gift and while driving back, smoke some. Around two, I'm back at Kitchen and I have a headache. Not a real bad one, but enough to make me want to sleep. However, in walks E all broken. I couldn't leave then. So he sits with me and C. We talk. He's taking hydrocodone for pain and he calls it truth pills. Must be. I can't remember all he said, but wow. I felt special. Apparently, he likes me. M got off work early and showed up. He sat with us. We all talked and it was a blast. A regular came in just drunk as all hell. She was falling all over, hitting her head and just wasted. She should have never come. But she had three different puking sessions. She passed out in a booth for awhile. I about fainted when she was throwing up tho. It was nasty. But our group survived. We started talking about movies we had cried at and I mentioned Star Trek. E asked me if I would go with him sometime and I said yes. Just thinking it was a friend thing. Well, it's supposed to be but I dunno. It's odd. E later got down on his one good knee, took my hand and asked me to go on this friendly date with him to the movie. I laughed and said that I had already said yeah. C and I stayed there until...some odd time in the morning. 6:30ish? But at the end of the night, E pulled me aside and told me that he had wanted to ask me out for a long time, but because of J he didn't. And that no matter how it all turns out he wants to be friends cause that's what it's all about. C and I drove back to my house and she went right to bed. I stayed up for an hour or so talking to my mom and reading.
Saturday - I slept from 8:30 until 2:30. I stayed in bed for a half hour and then got up to watch the game. The giants vs. someone. Ate cereal, took a shower. Hung out. Played X-box. Did nothing really for most of the day. C came over eventually and we watched Vanilla Sky. I wanted to cry for him. I really did. I just felt so horrible afterwards too. When the movie was over, we drove ourselves to kitchen. E called kitchen when we first got there and would really like a ride to get there. So I drove the 15 mins to get him with the guy who had played hack with us the night before. When we got back to kitchen it was 20 after 1. The guy and I talked for a bit. Then he left to pick a friend up from the bar. C had to leave too in order to be home on time. I was kinda sad cause I had hardly gotten to see her. So E and I talked a bit. J came over and talked a bit. (I don't enjoy speaking with him anymore, I get annoyed). M showed up again. That was really great. I hardly ever see him and then two nights in a row. So for the rest of the night, E, M and I all talked. It was cool. I was so tired by the end of the night. I got home at 6 or something. I would have been home later, cause I was suppose to take E home (or back to his friend's place or whatever) but he stayed at Mike's so I didn't have to.
Sunday - Slept from 7 until 4. Wow, that's a lotta sleep for me. I went out a watched the Packer's get their ass kicked. Hung out, I don't exactly remember so it must not be important. I told my parents how happy I was that they were my parents and how much I loved them. I cleaned my room up a little. Read a little. Was going to take a shower three times, but ended up doing something else. Finally I took my shower. Burned a cd. P called and wanted to hang out. It took a bit of talking into but she eventually got me to go out to Perkin's. I was supposed to play middleman that night, but didn't. Oh well. After Perkin's closed we went to Kitchen. P and I did our run around the parking lot and then sat in my car to talk while I made her listen to Norah Jones. I told her everything that had happened and how I just made a mess out of everything. That was nice. We went back inside. She was tired and KJ wasn't talking a lot. So P and I decided to leave. We talked the way home. Then talked more at home. Talked and talked and talked. It was so great. I'm so happy we're going to live together. Anyway, cause she's sick was coughing a lot. I managed to fall asleep a couple of times, but I couldn't get comfy or stay asleep. So I went out on the couch. My cat acted like my teddy bear. It was nice. P came out and asked if I wanted my bed back cause she would sleep out in the living room, but I told her I was super happy out here. Waking up this morning really sucked tho. I was so dead. My back hurts too. But I don't care. I'm happy. I'd be even happier if the day was over, but .... it's not. Oh well.
Friday - X-mas party. Woo hoo. Seriously I had a ton of fun. I got off work at 4. Went directly home and played Oddworld for a bit. Ok an hour. C came over and I got dressed. I'm gonna have to say I looked pretty hot too. But I was super nervous. Oh well, we drove to the fancy smancy restaurant that the party was going to be in. Went inside. Saw a high school friend and talked to her for a bit. Then went in the private party room. It was pretty uneventful really. Well, not really at all. I got to talk to my boss when he was drunk and that was fun. He didn't believe that I wasn't old enough to drink. Then I said hello to my already drunk supervisor and she slipped me two drink tickets. Fun fun. So before dinner I had a nice Captain and Coke. Oh the food was excellent by the by. But after dinner I had my other Capt'n and Coke. Yummy. So when we were opening presents, I got a gift that was to be opened at the end of the night. I set it down and then went to smoke a cigarette. I got to talk to blue-eyes. It was neat. Not stunning conversation or anything, but it was good to talk. He got done smoking first and I made him wait for me. Walking back to the party room was a bit of a challenge, buzzin on cigarettes and my two drinks. Oh well tho. So I go and have to open my gift in front of everyone. I got the wrapping paper off it, but couldn't figure out how to open the box. One of the bosses helped me out. So inside there is an envelop and in it is a flyer type thing. I was so confused! But I guess I won a circular saw. Good times. Everyone laughed (I guess I'm a little girly in their view). So I sat down and two seconds later I'm getting called up there again. Apparently, the boss that helped me out was taking my gift and giving me his. So I had to open that too. It was a tool belt kind of thing, but it wraps around a bucket. Woot. I didn't care. I sat down again. I sat down again and talked to people more. It was fun. I got a back rub from a one coworker and my wrist kissed and a hug from another coworker when I was asking the time. Towards the end of the night, I kept trying to get someone to go and take a shot of Capt'n with me. Cause it was in the car, why not? Pretty much everyone turned me down, how depressing. But one guy gave me a shot of whiskey. I've never had it before (it's warm!) So finally we all said good bye. C and I went over to kitchen. We went in, grabbed one guy and came back outside to play hack. It's hard. I was buzzing and wearing heels. But I still managed. It got cold and I went inside. C and the guy came in soon afterwards. I made C take me to the store and when I realized that I forgot my ID, she bought me cigs. Went back to kitchen. Still, I kept trying to get someone to take a shot with me. JQ ended up being the only one willing. So we sat in C's car in the parking lot and had a couple of swigs. Ok, this is where I'm really stupid. Really really really stupid. JQ says he can't drink anymore cause he has to go in and play Magic. I say one more drink and he says only if you give me a kiss. I say fine, whatever, just drink. So he takes a drink and then kisses me. I was not expecting it and kissed back out of reflex. Then kinda backed up and pushed him away when I realized it. STUPID! Ahhh, not a thing I needed to happen. (But it gets worse...) So we went back inside. I'm really buzzin after a least two shots and half a JD Hurricane Punch. SM comes and picks me up and we drive to my house, pick up her x-mas gift and while driving back, smoke some. Around two, I'm back at Kitchen and I have a headache. Not a real bad one, but enough to make me want to sleep. However, in walks E all broken. I couldn't leave then. So he sits with me and C. We talk. He's taking hydrocodone for pain and he calls it truth pills. Must be. I can't remember all he said, but wow. I felt special. Apparently, he likes me. M got off work early and showed up. He sat with us. We all talked and it was a blast. A regular came in just drunk as all hell. She was falling all over, hitting her head and just wasted. She should have never come. But she had three different puking sessions. She passed out in a booth for awhile. I about fainted when she was throwing up tho. It was nasty. But our group survived. We started talking about movies we had cried at and I mentioned Star Trek. E asked me if I would go with him sometime and I said yes. Just thinking it was a friend thing. Well, it's supposed to be but I dunno. It's odd. E later got down on his one good knee, took my hand and asked me to go on this friendly date with him to the movie. I laughed and said that I had already said yeah. C and I stayed there until...some odd time in the morning. 6:30ish? But at the end of the night, E pulled me aside and told me that he had wanted to ask me out for a long time, but because of J he didn't. And that no matter how it all turns out he wants to be friends cause that's what it's all about. C and I drove back to my house and she went right to bed. I stayed up for an hour or so talking to my mom and reading.
Saturday - I slept from 8:30 until 2:30. I stayed in bed for a half hour and then got up to watch the game. The giants vs. someone. Ate cereal, took a shower. Hung out. Played X-box. Did nothing really for most of the day. C came over eventually and we watched Vanilla Sky. I wanted to cry for him. I really did. I just felt so horrible afterwards too. When the movie was over, we drove ourselves to kitchen. E called kitchen when we first got there and would really like a ride to get there. So I drove the 15 mins to get him with the guy who had played hack with us the night before. When we got back to kitchen it was 20 after 1. The guy and I talked for a bit. Then he left to pick a friend up from the bar. C had to leave too in order to be home on time. I was kinda sad cause I had hardly gotten to see her. So E and I talked a bit. J came over and talked a bit. (I don't enjoy speaking with him anymore, I get annoyed). M showed up again. That was really great. I hardly ever see him and then two nights in a row. So for the rest of the night, E, M and I all talked. It was cool. I was so tired by the end of the night. I got home at 6 or something. I would have been home later, cause I was suppose to take E home (or back to his friend's place or whatever) but he stayed at Mike's so I didn't have to.
Sunday - Slept from 7 until 4. Wow, that's a lotta sleep for me. I went out a watched the Packer's get their ass kicked. Hung out, I don't exactly remember so it must not be important. I told my parents how happy I was that they were my parents and how much I loved them. I cleaned my room up a little. Read a little. Was going to take a shower three times, but ended up doing something else. Finally I took my shower. Burned a cd. P called and wanted to hang out. It took a bit of talking into but she eventually got me to go out to Perkin's. I was supposed to play middleman that night, but didn't. Oh well. After Perkin's closed we went to Kitchen. P and I did our run around the parking lot and then sat in my car to talk while I made her listen to Norah Jones. I told her everything that had happened and how I just made a mess out of everything. That was nice. We went back inside. She was tired and KJ wasn't talking a lot. So P and I decided to leave. We talked the way home. Then talked more at home. Talked and talked and talked. It was so great. I'm so happy we're going to live together. Anyway, cause she's sick was coughing a lot. I managed to fall asleep a couple of times, but I couldn't get comfy or stay asleep. So I went out on the couch. My cat acted like my teddy bear. It was nice. P came out and asked if I wanted my bed back cause she would sleep out in the living room, but I told her I was super happy out here. Waking up this morning really sucked tho. I was so dead. My back hurts too. But I don't care. I'm happy. I'd be even happier if the day was over, but .... it's not. Oh well.
