Friday, February 21, 2003
I haven't cried since I saw Star Trek. Now that I've started...I just can't stop. That's not a good thing when you're sitting at work. So many things...now what? I just kinda feel abandoned even tho that is not the case. So many people seem to be leaving or have already left. It just sucks.
Last night E stopped by my house to drop off my writing portfolio. He's going away. Probably forever. We didn't talk a whole lot. He mainly said, stay the way you are...you're so close to perfect and you keep striving...I'll send ya a postcard. I cried before he got there. Teared up a bit during and just cried afterwards. I called up Beppo and, oh I love that boy, he let me talk. I'm so lucky to have such great friends. Man oh man. I swear, I'll stop crying soon. I promise. Or not. It's kinda hard knowing that I won't be able to see him again. With almost every other ex, I figured I'd at least run into them. And I have. But I might never see him again.
Just so you know. I'm not crying for him. I'm crying for me. I'm selfish like that.
Ok, I quit
Last night E stopped by my house to drop off my writing portfolio. He's going away. Probably forever. We didn't talk a whole lot. He mainly said, stay the way you are...you're so close to perfect and you keep striving...I'll send ya a postcard. I cried before he got there. Teared up a bit during and just cried afterwards. I called up Beppo and, oh I love that boy, he let me talk. I'm so lucky to have such great friends. Man oh man. I swear, I'll stop crying soon. I promise. Or not. It's kinda hard knowing that I won't be able to see him again. With almost every other ex, I figured I'd at least run into them. And I have. But I might never see him again.
Just so you know. I'm not crying for him. I'm crying for me. I'm selfish like that.
Ok, I quit
