Thursday, April 01, 2004
Dealing with the now
Oh yeah, that's why I don't often look forward to stuff...It doesn't happen.
So if I can't look forward and what's already happened sucks, what's a girl to do? Suffer in silence while examining the present all around trying to figure out what exactly is going on? Sounds about right.
All I want is to know. I want to know why I feel like shit, I want to know if Drummer Boy is a good guy, I want to know if it's worth the extra effort I put into it (and yet receive nothing back).
But of course, I have no answers to my questions (that I have at the present time) because Drummer Boy hasn't called in the last week (but that's the past and we're not acknowledging that yet).
I just feel incredibly let down by everyone. Last night sucked and no one, not a soul was there for me.
So if I can't look forward and what's already happened sucks, what's a girl to do? Suffer in silence while examining the present all around trying to figure out what exactly is going on? Sounds about right.
All I want is to know. I want to know why I feel like shit, I want to know if Drummer Boy is a good guy, I want to know if it's worth the extra effort I put into it (and yet receive nothing back).
But of course, I have no answers to my questions (that I have at the present time) because Drummer Boy hasn't called in the last week (but that's the past and we're not acknowledging that yet).
I just feel incredibly let down by everyone. Last night sucked and no one, not a soul was there for me.
