Monday, March 07, 2005
I hate caffine
You would think that I would know better than to drink an "energy drink" at 7 at night, but apparently not. As a result, I'm super cranky today.
I think I woke up at least 10 times in the night. Which sucks. Lots. I'm a light sleeper anyway, but when I'm barely hanging on to sleep due to foreign substances, I wake up if the heater kicks on. Add in a noisy sleeper next to me and I'm not sleeping at all.
I wanted to cry I was so frustrated.
This weekend uneventful, I mean, when is anything really eventful? I went to dinner with my parents, sister and Ben on Friday. Did laundry, hung out with P and went to a movie on Saturday. Skied and went to dinner with sister, her boyfriend and Ben on Sunday.
I guess skiing in a tee shirt was pretty cool. I heard it was 60 degrees or something. Dunno if it was or not, but rock on.
Today I just feel sick. And like there is a lot of pressure on me. There always is moneywise, but feels like even more so lately. Last month, I had a paycheck with 13.5 hours of overtime on it, but I didn't get to keep a single dollar. And this month, besides the whole vacation thing to save for, I have to pay all the normal bills (including one huge electric bill) and car insurance for the next three months. That's already almost a thousand dollars. I just feel swamped.
I cannot wait for this vacation. It kills me that I still don't know what's going on with it. I don't know because Ben doesn't know. Not having control of this, being able to plan, is so frustrating. I wish I just knew if it was happening.
I think I woke up at least 10 times in the night. Which sucks. Lots. I'm a light sleeper anyway, but when I'm barely hanging on to sleep due to foreign substances, I wake up if the heater kicks on. Add in a noisy sleeper next to me and I'm not sleeping at all.
I wanted to cry I was so frustrated.
This weekend uneventful, I mean, when is anything really eventful? I went to dinner with my parents, sister and Ben on Friday. Did laundry, hung out with P and went to a movie on Saturday. Skied and went to dinner with sister, her boyfriend and Ben on Sunday.
I guess skiing in a tee shirt was pretty cool. I heard it was 60 degrees or something. Dunno if it was or not, but rock on.
Today I just feel sick. And like there is a lot of pressure on me. There always is moneywise, but feels like even more so lately. Last month, I had a paycheck with 13.5 hours of overtime on it, but I didn't get to keep a single dollar. And this month, besides the whole vacation thing to save for, I have to pay all the normal bills (including one huge electric bill) and car insurance for the next three months. That's already almost a thousand dollars. I just feel swamped.
I cannot wait for this vacation. It kills me that I still don't know what's going on with it. I don't know because Ben doesn't know. Not having control of this, being able to plan, is so frustrating. I wish I just knew if it was happening.
