Tuesday, October 29, 2002
Well...I feel sick. I don't know it's from the guilt of saying what I feel or if it's because I ate potato chips for breakfast. Tough call. I'm thinking it's from guilt. Why should I feel guilty of saying how I feel? I know why, it hurts feelings. I hate hurting people. I hate having people resent me for making them feel bad. I really hate drama and the issues that come up from it. I hate having to cause a ripple and afraid I can't leave well enough along. But how well is well enough and how bad does it have to get before it's not? I don't know. I don't know anything. I wonder if I'm just overanalyzing everything like always. If it's nothing and I'm just stupid for worrying. I try my hardest not to cause issues. I don't like to gossip and I don't like saying how I feel about situations because I might not have all the info and sound like a fool. So is it me?
I just noticed how many sentences I write that start with "I". What does that say?
I want to disapear for a week or more and see if people miss me. I wonder if I could. Probably, no one would notice for the first couple of days anyway.
My boss has found out how much I appreciate music and is bringing in random cds he has. Most of them are artists that haven't or will never hit mainstream. Like Angie Aparo. He might still be really popular. He wrote Cry, the song that Faith Hill is now doing. I dis-like Faith Hill and have since I don't know when. And to hear her sing his song, upsets me. He should be popular for singing it. But it's a great song and however it gets around, I'm glad people can enjoy it. Am I making sense? Didn't think so. Right now I'm listening to Jess Klein. She has a very neat-o voice. And some good songs too.
I just noticed how many sentences I write that start with "I". What does that say?
I want to disapear for a week or more and see if people miss me. I wonder if I could. Probably, no one would notice for the first couple of days anyway.
My boss has found out how much I appreciate music and is bringing in random cds he has. Most of them are artists that haven't or will never hit mainstream. Like Angie Aparo. He might still be really popular. He wrote Cry, the song that Faith Hill is now doing. I dis-like Faith Hill and have since I don't know when. And to hear her sing his song, upsets me. He should be popular for singing it. But it's a great song and however it gets around, I'm glad people can enjoy it. Am I making sense? Didn't think so. Right now I'm listening to Jess Klein. She has a very neat-o voice. And some good songs too.
